my experience with professor wesley

I really enjoyed this experience I came into the class a little worried not knowing what to expect but I actually enjoyed this experience and look forward to seeing professor in the fall. Hopefully I get into her class to be honest I'm going to actually miss this class and the teacher surprisingly I look forward to seeing all you in the fall some more than others. I know I should work harder from day one that's the only regret I can actually say I have I should have did time management instead of waiting to do everything at the last minute. Hopefully I come out of this class with an A I feel like I worked pretty hard to do my best and look forward to the fall and working even harder to make good grades. Well this is my last blog for Models Scholars 2013 Turn /Up  turn down for what because I got finals these next two days and I want to pass both my classes. shout out to c/o 2017 we in here coming to take over. Im actually ready to go home and see my family I missed them tons but enjoyed my stay here in Elizabeth city atleast ill be prepared when I come in the fall being away from my mom and dad. so it wont be hard to say good bye in the fall in my word. TURN UP FOR THE LAST TIME MODELS SCHOLARS 3 MORE DAYS AND WE OUT INTO THE FALL..

paper

Today we went to the library to help us get more sources for our argumentative essay. I felt like I found some pretty decent sources. I'm actually happy she cut the work down from eight pages to six a little relief since I'm stressing about my math. I feel that I'm doing my best and that I have a strong argument about why children and teens should respect their mothers who practically tie their shoes along the way for the next eighteen years making sure that everything that needs to be done is done. They give you everything that only a mother who's a natural care giver can give to their son our daughter. When I learned that I couldn't talk about personal experiences I was kind of hurt but I'm glad because I can know talk about an encounter I experienced while with a friend. the way she interacts with her mom is past rude, and disrespectful. I recently was out with the her and her mom she was beyond nasty to her mom she even went as far to curse while in the process to be honest I was disgusted by her actions. I could not possibly disrespect my mama and feel okay.

arguement

In class today was pretty basic we talked about how to incorporate certain things in our paper. when we write our eight page paper. I better understood how to incorporate ethos,logos, and pathos into my paper. To write but not win. I'm kinda glad i choose mother hood once again because its a strong topic that's debatable to get into many kids know days do not respect their parent the way they should. They cuss, hit, and disobey their parents as if their not the ones who created them. i feel i have a very strong topic that many people will be able to relate to and some will agree and disagree but hey that's the reason I'm arguing my opinion to make them understand why they shouldn't disrespect their parents but talk to them with sense, understanding, and respect. In my paper I'm going to hit the strong points that hit home to me how parents want to fit in and party with their kids, but not tell them wrong from right. How they accept what their kids tell them and don't do anything or how they disrespect their elders and have no remorse to doing it. How when their kids grow up and become a problem they wonder what they could have did different raising them. When their in jail for life. all because they never had the necessary guidance they needed. But it will be to late for i should a could a. To raise them right so you don't have to worry about them being haywire.

debate but dont debate..

i decided to do mother hood because i can relate to it. My mother wasnt my friend but my mother and i think that i turned out pretty good. I used to want a friend relationship with my mother but then i realized i want someone who's going to show me wrong from right. Teach me how to be a lady and not a sex object. So I'm glad my mother was my mother and not my friend. Sometimes i think parents get so confused in wanting to be accepted by their kids that they end up turning into Friends. Saying things that you shouldn't say to your mother the one who birthed you. take for instance when Sula disrespected her grandmother even though she not her mother she felt that it was okay to talk like that to her grandmother she even has the audacity to threaten her. if i ever even try to raise my voice when talking to my mother i would be picking up my teeth but since i was raised to respect my elders i know what to say and what not. that can get me in trouble. i feel pretty good on my claim i feel like its deep but understandable at the same time.

Ready

Today in class was pretty straight I'm looking forward to going home. In groups today the author was basically saying how were so focused on,i pods,i pads, TV. computers that we fail to read and really get knowledge. i agree with her but personally even though i do surf the internet, watch TV, and be on my phone i still read books without being told. it could just be me i like reading and learning so it a 50/50 idea that all teens do that and some don't because we actually enjoy it. watching the movie i didn't really relate to it just because you see violence doesn't necessary mean your going to be violent or do violent things. That just like saying growing up poor your going to be poor all your life. so you cant say that by watching or playing certain games or TV shows that your going to follow what they do in your life. I watch TV for entertainment and that's what its their for in my opinion of course there will be a couple violent scenes here and their don't mean im going toimitate it when im done watching. on the brighter side im ready to go home i miss my sisters and my brother especially mi madre. 

Nels The Villian

1965
I really didn't understand 1965 like i understood the other chapters. I'm Found out that Sula did have a vital role when she asked Nel how didn't she know if she was the good friend. we looked at Sula as being the evil one when in vice verse it was really nel. Pushing all the blame on sula portraying her as the evil best friend when all long it was nel behind the scenes. I notice that when nel pays Eva a visit and she ask why she watched chicken little drown she had no response but she didn't it was Sula but it was her. Who didn't want to tell others what happen that fateful Day. It was her who was over joyed as Chicken little slipped out of Sula hands and went soaring into the water that stayed calm while Sula was hysteric and afraid. Sula was the one who went to see if anyone had saw but nel was the one that ask her whether anyone saw. Nel was behind the scenes the whole time being mischievous us thinking shes quiet and out spoken were wrong. In the end she realizes that she was the bad friend, and starts to miss Sula friendship and companionship it wasn't Jude she was missing but Sula.

Technology and Animoto

Technology is taking over if you realize, kids and adults are more likely to be caught texting or talking on the phone maybe even on their laptops. Their so many different ways communication and television is evolving.




Make a video of your own at Animoto.
I made a animoto base on the main events that took place in 1941 that i thought were important to me.

1941

I did my popplet on Sula passing away. The town being happy that's she going. They also think that brighter days are right around the corner little do they know their not. They have nobody to blame for everything that's happening to them in the bottom since Sula has passed. Shadrack is lonely know that Sula has passed he misses her he also doesn't want to continue national suicide day but he does. In the end many residents of the bottom end up losing their lives in the tunnel.

New Beginnings

1941
I only got to read the beginning so ill tell you what I know so far.I know that No one mourns the death of Sula but they basically celebrate that the evil spirit is gone and brighter days are around the corner. Eva is even moved to a better nursing home. What I'm not understanding is why is she still in the nursing home when her guardian has died. Its like everyone is happy that Sula has passed away. Theirs a new job coming for blacks to work on so everyone is happy about that, but then a cold winter comes to the bottom destroying crops, killing animals, and making the bottom residents sick. Making it hard for them to work. Surprisingly this all has happened after Sula died so theirs no one to blame this time when bad things start top happen. Hopefully everyone's able to recovery from this bad storm that has came through. That's the most I've read I look forward to reading the rest of the chapter and see what happening in the bottom. So far it looks like some people want survive this storm that has frozen everything. I wonder how Nels taking everything since she has  mouths to feed know reminds me of Eva when she talked about the weather and what she should to do to provide for her kids.

Friendship

Sick Sula

1940
I think nel was to kind for coming to check on her ex bestfriend sula to be honest after the way she hurt her i dont know if i could have been the bigger person in a situation like that. Even on her dieing bed shes still cocky and arrigrant when sula ask her what could she do for her she says her medicine and when she looks into sula purse theirs only the watch and prescription no money at all.Basiucally forcing nel to have to pay for her medicine with her own money still being the inconsiderated friend after all the pain she has caused.When nel asks Sula why she sleep with Jude she gave a blunt answer that wasn't good enough for me because she wanted to fill up space in her head that she felt needed to be filled.is probably the reason she sleeps around from watching her mom do it but Hannah was happy wit it. Sula on the other makes her feel lonelier to me. After reading every chapter i think less and less of Sula character because, she all for self she doesn't care for the ones around her just her. im still trying to fugure out what she dieing from i know she overdosed but whats the sudden reason for her illness. I wonder did she know all along she was sick and dieing our was it sudden sickness but looking at things i personally think she had been sick for a long time. She probably contradicted a disease she couldn't get rid of from sleeping around.

Ajax aka Albert Jacks and Sula

Sula Has Lightened

 1939
Sula Has not been back in the bottom for to long and the town already knows shes put her grandmother Eva in the sunny dale nursing home. She stolen her friends husband from her due to the fact she thought it was alright because the shared kisses as young kids together. She soon realizes that marriage is different. If i was Eva i would have not let Sula return and stay at my house knowing of everything shes capable of doing. I also blame nel for not putting Sula in her place when she had referenced to her husband having a large penis lead to it as well. its almost like Sula doesn't care for their friendship but she really does because later on in the chapter she starts to talk about her and reminisce down memory she even goes so far to say nel was the closet thing to her other half. i don't think she regrets sleeping with Jude but she kinda knows what she did was wrong. Suddenly Ajax shows up to basically see what everyone has been talking about when it comes to Sula being quick to bed it took him less then 24hrs and a bottle to get in between her leaves. Which resulted in him leaving her when he saw the changes she started making she even admits she started being possessive wondering if he would come and when. she goes as far to clean the house and make dinner which result in one last rump before he hits the road for good. Leaving no traces he was ever there but his id.He real name was Albert Jacks something she never knew until he disappeared like she would a man. Karma starting to pay Sula back for all the chaos she brought upon others.

Sulas a Hoe

Sula

Sula came back to town looking like a movie star. everyone in the bottom knew of her return before her own big mama did. why did Sula return to the bottom, since she was so ready to get out in the first place. She came back more disrespectful telling her big mama to shut her mouth. Let me say something like that to one of my parents ill be picking up my teeth better yet threaten to set them on fire. i wouldn't have a place to stay and Eva been crazy and scared of what she said locking her bedroom door at night before she falls asleep shows fear. Which i disagree with then Sula telling Nel she was scared of her grandma so she put her in a nursing home doesn't even make since to me. I'm kind of glad Nel had her own opinion when it came to that situation and not letting Sula put Eva checks in her name. I wish she was just smart enough to keep friends away from your man take Sula mama Hannah for instance sleeping with married men and friends men. Should have been a  warning especially when Sula said something about his penis being big. Words cant describe what i would have done to either one of them catching them having sex and not stopping when she enters is behind my mind. If Sula was the true friend she say she was she wouldn't have done it.

Nomore pain

1937
When I read about Nel getting married i was kinda glad she was venturing out on her own no more Sula rules. even her boyfriend goes in as to say nel does what Sula wants which i think is very correct. i also feel that Sula is a Little envious of nel being the first to get married out of the two but want admit it. that's why she leaves without saying good bye to someone who was suppose to be dear to her heart her best friend. Nel being so submissive didn't mind probably took it as Sula not wanting to end on bad terms. even nel mother was over joyed that Sula was finally leaving and would be gone for a good 10 years. Being that nel is so submissive she will probably doing what ever her husband wants her to do. like cooking, cleaning, laundry, and all the chores. I feel like the book is starting to heat up and get very steaming in the coming chapters. I feel that Sula knows that even if their relationship is a struggle she'll be willing to work on it because she loves Sula like a sister.

Crazy People

1922
Reading Sula this chapter made more interested in Lil Sula, and Nel. I know that it comes with the territory of growing up becoming interested in boys.But it seems like their hot in the butt hole, especially when their at the parlor. the men are all looking at them because their the next best thing on the block. their still young and tender aka fresh meat. like Ajay says pig meat. basically i felt he was saying its open season on the youngings which they dint mind at all. they actually ate the attention up of the men looking. when in actuality they're a bunch of perverts. looking at young girls who are no where near the legal age.later on in the book we met chicken who is a cute little boy from my imagination with a big ole smile. when i read more into depth of what happened to him makes me angry that Sula could do that and feel no pain or remorse. she didn't even try to help him all she did was run to see if shadrach saw it which he didn't.i feel like shes going to be a very out of control little girl in the late chapters. i felt like she going to follow in her mother foot steps of being a whore. which i don't want to say but the way shes carrying on after she sees shadrach acting like she hurt because he said always lets me know she wants him as well.

Eva's Love

1921
Eva is what you call a determined mother, willing to do whatever it takes to make sure she can provide for her family. she remains me of a strong black mother who plays no mess. like when she sets her son plum on fire to save him from killing himself she does it herself without help. She leaves her kids to provide a better life .Which I agree she takes care of business and handles it well. She loves her kids at the same time. while taking in the Dewey's. Who all act as one on one accord. its very disgusting that Hannah sleeps with newly married men. I kind of feel like she's trying to find love in all the wrong places. so far the book has got far more interesting from the beginning. i just wish hannah would love herself enough to know when enough is enough. sula already knows what mommy does, and what she gets from it is that mama likes having sex it makes her happy. which she shouldnt do taht im glad i come from a family with morales, and dignity.

1919 National Suicide Day

1919
Sula was a great read so far. I like how the writer gives great detail, and imagery in every in page. She grabs your attention making you want to read more, and learn more.I feel that Shadrach was pretty traumatized from the events at war . When he saw one of his fellow men head blown off. But his body was still running with blood and brain sliding down. I cant imagine how he felt or describe the pain he went through in war. waking  up in a hospital not knowing what had happened to him. Being afraid of his own hands, maybe to the fact that he took some lives with these hands hes afraid to look at.Most importantly why would he come up with national suicide day? Does he knows something we don't know that will take place.Maybe hes warning them of what to come who knows, so i guess i shall continue to read and learn more of whats about to happen.

1920
I really didn't read this chapter. Kinda mad that i had to take a bad grade on something so simple. If i just would have read instead of waiting to the last minute. I wouldn't have got a zero on the pop quiz today. I need to get a little more organized this is college right. I do want to make it far and slacking off in the beginning is not good.I feel bad that everyone around me had read, where was i that i didn't read. I know that this can not happen again. I have to make sure i do everything in my power to stay ahead, and on top of things. Even though i didn't get to read last night .I defiantly will make sure i read this chapter and the next so that I'm well prepared for these pop quizzes. Easy grades are the ones that help in the long run. they have the power to make or break you.